they are so different

disaat gue merasakan bete yang amat sangat ini. walaupun sudah malem tapi tetep aja males tidur kalo badmood gini huhuhu. jadi gue kepengen ceritain sesuatu. curhat ceritanyaaaaaaa hahaha. ini tentang dua orang yg berbeda. heeeeem you know who laaaah zzzzz



aduh tapi gue males nulisnya sekarang. entar entar aja deh gue update. -_-'

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sebenernya gue menulis blog ini pada tanggal 15 november 2009 tapi karena ini curhatan gue jadinya gue simpan di draft gue yang lama aja biar gak keliatan hehe palingan 5 orang yg follow blog gue doang yg bisa menyadarinya ckck
kemarin tepat tanggal 14 NOVEMBER 2009, tepat hari SABTU, tapi jamnya kurang tepat hahahaha (ketemunya jam 4 sore seharusnya jam 9 malem akakak) yaaaaa mustinya kemaren gue merayakan 9 bulanan gueeeeee huhu kalo istilah orang hamil kan udah brojol tuh jabang bayinya hehe. tapi kemarin gue sempet ketemu dia loooooh. seneng DIKIT betenya BANYAK. ketemunya juga gak sengaja karena gue emang janjian sama kebek di TJ mau ke rumah dira. eh taunya dia bareng ehemnya dan bareng temen ehemnya. kaget dikit waktu ngeliat dia. yaah tapi gue tetep stay cool aja yaa. abis biasa aja kalo udah ketemu. gak biasanya kalo dia nya udah gak ada. biasaaaaa kan gue sukanya main belakang akakak.

setelah 6 bulan putus dan gue sempat beralih ke another boy tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiii tetep aja i cant move on. pas jadian sama another boy ini yaa gue udah ngerasa biasa aja sama dia walaupun masih sering teringat hehe. yaa gue udah punya cowo, dia juga udah punya gebetan yaa buat apa juga gitu. dan setelah gue putus, gue udah yakin banget tuh i can move on karena another boy itu kayaknya membuka pikiran gue hahaha (thankyou so much) gue mikir aja yaaa cowo bukan dia doaaaaang. there are many boys around us. they just like billion fishs in the ocean (walaupun perbandingan cowo cewe di dunia tetep cowo yg lebih dikit) dan yg pasti lebih baik dari dia. seminggu berjalaaaaaaaaaaan dan akhirnyaaaaaaaaa he come back in to my life. enggak enggak. sebenernya bukan come back tapi he visit in my life. yeeeaaah itu kata yg paling tepat. hanya mengunjungi untuk sesaat, lalu pergi sesuka hatinyaaaaaa. selamet deh yaaaa buat dia. you make me begging again and again and again <= jauhi ini karena ini salah satu ciri dari cewe bego. dari dulu emang kerjaannya kayak gitu. gue inget banget pas pedekate eaaaaaaa dia sempat menjauhi gue setelah berhasil mendekati gue. lagu yg mengingatkan gue saat itu adalah ♪♪ hate that i love you - rihanna. akakakaka. setelah itu dia mendekati gue lagi setelah mendapat pencerahan dari sodaranya katanyaaaaa. setelah jadian juga gitu-gitu doang. nothing special. sekali lagi dicapkan NOTHING SPECIAL. malah gue merasa diacuhkan seperti lagunya agnes monica yg satu ini

♪♪Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah
Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta bukan
Kebutuhan mu

tapi gak tau kenapa gue sayaaaaaaaaang sama dia walaupun gue gak tau dia sayang apa enggak sama gue (katanya tuh menyayangi seseorang emang gak harus ada alasannya karena ketika alasan itu menghilang dari orang yg kita sayang, maka rasa sayang kita juga akan hilang terhadap orang itu <= gue sedikit males nulisnya. tapi gapapa deh biar dia seneng hahaha. setelah 3 bulan bentarnya gue putus-tus-tus.itu tuh bener bener kayak kata iklan : putus hubungan dengan nyamuk -,- jayus yeeee. tapi beneran itu putus yg bener putus sama sekali. jadi abis ada kata putus dan sedikit basi basi yg agak sedih gitu terus sejam, sehari, seminggu, sebulan, setahun, sejuta abad kemudian <= yg gue warnain agak lebay dikit hehe dia sama sekali gak pernah hubungi gueeeeeeeeeee. kalaupun contact, gue duluan yg hubungin dia -,- <= jangan diikutin karena ini juga salahsatu ciri cewe bego. padahal gue tau dia tau alasan gue mutusin dia walaupun gue gak kasih tau. yaa gue itu salah gue juga. dan mungkin selama ini gue masih teringat dia karena salah gue itu kali yaa. kalo katanya christina aguilera ituuuu

♪♪ There's nothing I wouldn't do To hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you But I know you won't be there Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand? Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am? There's nothing I wouldn't do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back
If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I've missed you Since you've been away And I've hurt myself by hurting you

dan tau lagu persembahan dari dira saat gue putus apa ? yaitu lagunya glenn fredly

♪♪ sandiwarakah selama ini setelah sekian lama kita tlah bersama inikah akhir cerita cinta yang selalu aku banggakan di depan mereka entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu

kini harus aku lewati
sepi hariku tanpa dirimu lagi
biarkan kini ku berdiri
melawan waktu tuk melupakanmu
walau pedih hati namun aku bertahan

lagu yg membuat lovelife gue makin MELANKOLIS gak boong melankolisnya ckck

dan tau lagu apa yg mengingatkan gue sama dia ? lagunya BCL-PERNAH MUDA yg lagi booming dan MALIQ D'ESSENTIAL-DIA gak tau kenapa. dan satu lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii toesday poetry-your love makes me want to sing and guess whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat si another boy juga pernah menyanyikan itu kalo gak salaaaah.

nah waktu berlalu tanpa arti hauhuaha lebay abis. dan akhirnya i found my another boy ckck and absolutely he different with him hmmmm better mungkin. tapiii sayang gak bertahan lama cuma 1 bulan zzzzz. i love his behaviour, i love his way to treat a girl, hmm pokoknya gitu deh yaa. sayangnya i cant get the feel. selain mendapat racun dari temen-temen gue yg biadab itu <= i'm so sorry hehe.
sepanjang jalan kenangan kan si dia mendekat lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ah tapi sebenarnya gue gak ngerti maksud dia menghubungi gue untuk apa. apa dia menanggap ini biasa aja karena hubungan ini sudah seperti teman biasa, guenya aja kegeeran hauhuahaa -_-' apa untuk menghibur hati gue yg abis putus, atau untuk mempermainkan gue, manarik ulur gue karena dia tau gue masih terngiang-ngiang oleh bayangannyaaaa eaaaa tai yeee bahasanye ckck

and finallyyyyyyyyyy,
i think enough to stuck in here, its time to forget you, REALLY ! shit for wasting my time for you hahahaha kalo katanya johnny deep di film apa yak lupa judulnya : good bye black bird ! FYI : gue suka sedih sendiri kalo nonton film ini. nonton berkali-kali juga gak bakaln bosan hehe.
dan seperti lagu yg satu ini

♪♪ biar aku yg pergi bila tak juga pasti adakah selama ini aku cinta sendiri

biar aku menepi
bukan lelah menanti
namun apalah artinya
cinta pada bayangan

pedih aku rasakan
kenyataannya
cinta tak harus saling memiliki

dan sekarang really really forget him. dia sama kehidupan baunya <= salah nulis. mustinya baru) di bangku perkuliahan, yaa yg emang dunianya udah beda sama gue dan dia emang udah harus pergi. eaaa life must be go on ckckck. with all of my heartfelt to go on boy like this song.

♪♪ i can’t get it back, but I don’t want it back, I Realized that, She don’t know how to act Never been a dumb dude No I’m not dense I Just had a slight lack Of common sense I was the good guy She was the bad girl I’m thinking one girl She thinking me, earl James and jimmy Yep she had plenty But love for me, she didn’t have any

I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man’s car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I’m strong
Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook:]
Please don’t worry bout me I’m fine
Only gonna play the fool one time
Trust me when I say
That I’ll be OK
Go on girl

The mistake I made is clear
(we never should’ve been together)
Thats the reason you’re not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I’m feeling no stress
I’m too fly to be depressed

all about friendship

i love my bestfriends and initially i dont want it will be break. but right now, i think its over. i cant keep her anymore ! not because I was affected them, but i aware her behavior that make me keep at the distance from her.
my friends conscious first that she is different with us and there is no hope for together. but i was defended her altough they dont like what she was did to me, her and them. i try to get the hang about her, make my friends assimilate and its hard to do. i surrender to maintain her, i think enough to improve her image at their eyes. because at last i know her attitude is freak, cute ass, realize she is unfaithful friend, like seeking attention, often make senses, like to take advantage of other people and the most important is can not shut her mouth, can not keep a secret, women secret, our secret.
why I am angry she can not keep a secret? because not everything can be published, i really believe that everyone needs privacy. you can tell them something that is worth telling, but when its inappropriate to telling, why must you tell to them, haaaah ? can you keep your fucking mouth ?
and now i am tired to make friends with you. enough for me to understand of you. i just quite know. maybe i cant show what i feel to you, but you must know i hate your behaviour, FAKE !